Room 322, Tuesday Afternoon

[not_every_mage]

If Anders was being honest, he'd have to admit that the tall box from Kathy that Ringo had given him some months before had fallen completely out of his mind.

It had started with good intentions: He'd dragged the parcel back to his room and stuck it in the closet so he could save it for his actual birthday and feel like Kathy was there, just for a moment. And then there had been the madness of trying to summon a demon, and the dull terror of the Circle, and by the time he was home again his birthday was some weeks past and the tall package entirely forgotten in a back corner of his closet. The fact thinking about Kathy hurt and he avoided it when he could had only added to his amnesia.

It might have stayed there forever, if Lachlan hadn't managed to hit one of his toy mice deep into the closet. Anders went digging through a mess of discarded paper to find it, and ended up bumping into the box. The tall, slender package wobbled worryingly for a moment before he was able to catch it.

And then there was nothing to do but open it. Lachlan's mouse was forgotten as he pried the paper off and found --

A damned fine staff. The kind he'd never expect to afford on his own. He could feel its power singing to him as he held it in his lap. Some part of him couldn't wait to get to a space where he could test it safely.

The rest of him mainly wanted to cry.

"Dammit, Kathy," he muttered. "Just ... damn it."

[OOC: Cracked door, open post.]

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[not_every_mage]

"I miss you too," Anders said, but he was quieter. "I just -- is this helping us? Or is it only making it hurt worse when I wake up and you aren't with me?"

Maybe there was a reason his subconscious had kept him away.

[spin_kick_snap]

"I don't know," Kathy said, arms wrapping around her knees. She looked lost, then, and vulnerable. "I'm just dead, Anders, I wasn't given all the answers. I just know I'm here and the only time I feel, well, much of anything is when you're here, too."

[not_every_mage]

"You died," Anders said, mock-cross. "The least you should have gotten out of it is some eternal wisdom."

He sighed. "Maybe I should try harder not to come. If I'm keeping you here when you're supposed to move on, that's just selfish."

[spin_kick_snap]

"Move onto where?" Kathy asked. "To what? I don't know what's supposed to happen to me. Shouldn't it already have happened?" She shook her head. "I will understand if you don't want to come visit me anymore, but don't pretend that it's somehow for my benefit."

[not_every_mage]

Anders frowned, a crease forming in the middle of his forehead.

"I want to see you," he said. "But only if it's really you. I -- don't know that you are, anymore. This place has changed things."

Just then, she seemed more like the demon Kathy of his Harrowing than like the flesh-and-blood girl he'd loved.

[spin_kick_snap]

That was the kicker, wasn't it? Who could tell who or what he was dealing with. And even if she were the girl now, that didn't mean there wasn't a demon wandering out there just the same.

Or vice versa.

For her part, Kathy (Kathy?) flinched away as thought she'd been struck, her face melting into an expression much like the ones she'd wear after a long conversation with her parents. "You don't trust me?" she asked, eyes filling with tears. "I helped you escape!"

[not_every_mage]

"You did," Anders said, guilty. "You did, and then I couldn't help you, and -- I suppose I owe you something for that, don't I?"

It was hard to be rational and cold when Kathy was in tears.

"Please. Don't be mad at me, darling."

[spin_kick_snap]

"I don't want you to owe me anything!" Kathy cried out, her arms around her head. "I didn't do it for that! I did it for you, because I love you and I didn't want you trapped in a Circle and miserable forever!"

Exactly what Kathy would say, how Kathy would feel. But easy enough for a demon to guess as well, to make Anders trust her.

[not_every_mage]

Anders was confused, something panicky behind his eyes.

"I don't know what to do," he admitted. "This isn't right. I -- think I should go. Just to clear my head. All right?"

[spin_kick_snap]

"Don't go!" Kathy said, head snapping up and something like desperation in her eyes. "No, please, I'm sorry. I'll be...better. Different. Something. Anything. Please just don't go. Don't leave me all alone again."

[not_every_mage]

"But I'm going to have to leave you alone sooner or later," Anders said logically. "And it's not as though we've been making each other very happy. So maybe I should just ... go before it gets worse."