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Anders ([personal profile] not_every_mage) wrote2015-09-26 03:16 pm

Room 418, Saturday Afternoon

When the island was calm, Saturday were normally lazy days for Anders. He supposed this one counted as lazy too -- at least, he hadn't done anything out of the ordinary -- but it felt strangely tense. He didn't need to be particularly insightful to realize more was going on with Nathan than a bad night's sleep, but he wasn't sure how to even start asking about it.

So he stayed in Nathan's room, and tried to read a novel he kept forgetting the plot of. Eventually, he glanced over to Nathan.

"Should we take a walk?" he asked. "I feel like doing something."

[OOC: For one, please.]

[identity profile] halfbad.livejournal.com 2015-09-26 07:44 pm (UTC)(link)
"A walk?" Nathan shook his head. "I'd rather not. You can but I'm still pretty worn down."

He felt sick even if he knew he never got sick. That didn't matter.

"I think I'm going to stay in and try and rest."

[identity profile] halfbad.livejournal.com 2015-09-26 08:35 pm (UTC)(link)
"I get sick," he argued because he could, "when I stay inside."

It was a technicality but still.

"I had a bad day yesterday," he sighed, severely underestimating what had happened. "I think...my Gift's coming out. I think."

[identity profile] halfbad.livejournal.com 2015-09-26 08:59 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't know," he said and that was the honest truth. He was so tired. "I lost some time. I woke up completely lost yesterday."

He wasn't sure how much he was going to tell but he could give Anders some slivers of what he was dealing with.

[identity profile] halfbad.livejournal.com 2015-09-26 09:46 pm (UTC)(link)
"I can't remember anything from when I went to sleep the night before last and when I woke up."

He shivered.

"And I walked home. Once I woke up, I was...me again."

Re:

[identity profile] halfbad.livejournal.com 2015-09-27 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
"I don't know," he said, sounding helpless. "I can't remember anything."

That was a...slight lie. He remembered waking up with a dead person.

"Something happened. I woke up somewhere else and I was dirty. I'd done something."

[identity profile] halfbad.livejournal.com 2015-09-27 01:09 am (UTC)(link)
"I don't know," he said, frustrated. He just couldn't talk about what he'd seen. He was trying to hold onto the hope that he hadn't done that. "But, if my clothes were dirty, then I'd obviously done something. Maybe I just rolled around in the dirt. I don't know. I can't remember."

[identity profile] halfbad.livejournal.com 2015-09-27 01:58 am (UTC)(link)
"If don't have to stay if you're going to be angry," Nathan said, shaking his head. "I'm still trying to figure out myself, Anders. I don't know what's going on or why it's going on. It's new and it's scary."

And he wasn't sure he could broach the topic of the body without having an utter breakdown.

[identity profile] halfbad.livejournal.com 2015-09-27 02:18 am (UTC)(link)
"I'm still trying to figure it all out," he sighed, rubbing his head. "It's a new Gift. Literally no one can control them the first time out. Gabriel got stuck as a fain with his Gift. I don't want that to happen to me."

He said nothing about keeping things to himself.

"I won't get killed."

He knew that.

[identity profile] halfbad.livejournal.com 2015-09-27 01:44 pm (UTC)(link)
"Don't worry, I wouldn't wanna be a fain or...whatever it is happens to me," he said, sighing. "I don't know if this is the first time it's happened or the first time I've remembered it. If it happens again, I'm going to try and remember. It's all I can think to do."

[identity profile] halfbad.livejournal.com 2015-09-27 04:01 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'm not shutting you out," Nathan said, shaking his head. "I need to know what's going on myself before I can tell you or anyone. That's all. And I just don't know enough right now."

[identity profile] halfbad.livejournal.com 2015-09-27 07:02 pm (UTC)(link)
"I will," Nathan promised, nodding. "When I figure things out, I'll tell you. I just don't want anyone to panic."

Least of all him. He needed t stay calm.

[identity profile] halfbad.livejournal.com 2015-09-27 08:03 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'll figure things out and I'll tell you," he said, nodding. He just needed some time to get his head together, see if he recovered some memories. "Don't worry."

[identity profile] halfbad.livejournal.com 2015-09-27 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
"Thank you," Nathan said, smiling slightly. "It'll be fine. I'll figure it out."

He hoped.